[32] I am in a Pickle
It's October. :] I love October for some reason. It's starting to get colder. Which means more cuddling in front of the fire with mugs of hot chocolate and an 80's movie on the TV. Yeah... October.
I spent the night at Nicole's last night... again. Her, me, Kayleigh, and a bunch of other people went swimming at this apartment pool for about two hours, so that was kind of fun. It was so cold that we sat in the hot tub for basically the entire time we were there. Afterwards, Kayleigh, Nicole, Dustin [Nicole's brother], Whitney, and I went back to Nicole's house and all of us girls spent the night.
Man. Dustin was all over me in the hot tub. When we got to Nicole's, he was like, "Come and sneak in my room later." So I just said, "Uh... okay." So when everyone was just kind of sitting around, not doing much of anything, I went into Dustin's room and we watched Scream on his bed. And... yeah. We fooled around. That's all there is to it. Not going into an details.
I feel kind of bad about it. It just kind of happened. I really don't care if I ever talk to Dustin again, honestly. I don't like him all that much, it was just a spur of the moment thing and... well, what's done is done. Why I feel bad about it is because Garrott and I still like each other a lot and I don't know whether there's a point to tell him about what happened. I want to, just so he'll know, but at the same time I don't, because we aren't even going out, so why does it matter?
EGADDDDSSSS.
Confusion.
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