[6] Orientation & Frustration
Orientation is tomorrow, and I have nothing to wear. I might want to straighten that out before it's too late, because that's what I usually do: procrastinate to the point of no return. I can just see myself waking up at 1:00 and scrambling for a t-shirt and pair of jeans.
Is there such thing as having friends who don't really act like your friends? I'm thinking there is, because it seems like I'm experiencing it. Maybe it's just because it's summer and everyone's out doing their own thing, but somehow, somehow, I get left out of everything. I'm not trying to sound whiny or anything, but sometimes you can't help it when something like this is tugging at your brain. Why the hell do my friends act like I'm not a friend? Why? I just don't get it. None of them have actually talked to me all summer, and it's not as if I haven't tried striking a conversation now and then. It's so... I don't even know the word for it. I just know it would be a synonym for the meaning of "something that drags down one's self-esteem a fucking lot".
That's truly what it is.
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